 I believe I had my first all-out anxiety attack today. My heart was pounding, I got dizzy, felt like my face was going to burst into flames, and had a very hard time not crying. It happened on the way to Nanton and lasted about 20-30 minutes.
What a terrifying and horrible experience. I have been feeling lost and in a rut for some time now. I believe this was my body SCREAMING at me to wake up and start following my heart. That's much scarier than one would think. When you have people who depend on you professionally and emotionally, you can't just pick up and run away...although that very thought has crossed my mind many times. Awareness. To what is going on within and outside of ourselves. When we get too far from our best selves and our true path, this is what happens. Have you been ignoring what your body and the Universe are trying to tell you? They are never wrong.
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Judi
5/24/2016 06:32:01 pm
I had three self-diagnosed "panic attacks" when I was trying to figure out if I should quit nursing school or not. The alternatives were not presenting themselves to me, and youth unemployment at the time was 28%. I couldn't see the answer in quitting, but continuing to pursue it was wrong - I knew this in my heart. Such a terrible time for me. I finally quit one day, on the ward, and was so ashamed. But you know what? Within two months, I got a job that I still consider the best job I ever had. Things have a way of working themselves out for the greater good, even if we can't see a path for ourselves. Love you, and I only want the best for you - hopefully you want that too. Smooches!!
Jodi
5/24/2016 06:54:36 pm
Wow. Judi, I didn't know that. I do know that I am needing to take that step, but it's a scary one with only my income to support the girls and I. This has definitely made me wake up and come closer to realizing what the right thing for me is. Leave a Reply. |
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